Poor a little rabbit

It´s really not easy to be an animal I think. Why do I possible have to talk about this by now? Well it happens that my daughter´s rabbit, was forgotten in her room for several hours once a time. She left home to see a mate, the rest of my family wasn´t home either, so I was all alone. For some reason I had to visit my daughters room, I just had to left a bunch of her clothes in there, when I was in her room, I droped something on the floor and when I reach for it I allmost got a shock, that poor rabbit sat under the table on the rug, she had been in my daughter´s room for hours, my god, hope she not pooped och wet some places we don´t know, pehaps we smell it later thouhg?
Guess the rabbit must have been quite satisfied though she just sat there and never try go somewhere else as the door was wide open. Cosy rug aye?

This wasn´t the first time either, but that is another story ^^

Tomorrow I will show a presentation of music material as I have collect in different webbsites. It´s very exciting and I have a few butterflies in my stomach by now. I know it will be just fine, I have practise a couple of times and that felt good. Similar presentation I haven´t done sins highschool I think. All by my self up there, a big audience and a lots of eyes and ears. Wow, it shall be so fun, I´m an actris and I know I can do this, my work will pay off, they will listend and understand why it´s so important with musictherapi for intensive care patients. Well, that´s what I hope for. Go for it!!

Right now I listened to nostalgic music, Swedish boyband in the great 80ties, and some others too. I was a teenager that time. Now my daughter is and I have a hard time understanding her way. We argue a lot, she gets angry of me very often, I know why, that nag and stuff I always talking about with her and her brother must be anoying but I also think it´s necessary belive it or not. I told them both I will hunt them down with fire behind their asses until they got themselfs an education and later a job. It will pay off sooner or later. Perhaps sometimes much later in the future their both kisses my feet ^^
An inch of humor and a little of serious. I love my kids and wishes them all luck in the future. Hope they understand their crazy, angry and nagging mom some day. It´s not easy, you know. To be a mom.
Sometimes I will run away, take a long vacation from this life. Having support or someone else taking over for a while. Maybe the kids listened more then. Earlier this evening I just felt running away, far, far away and not coming back for a long time. Leave me alone, please, don´t ask me anything or beg. I can not manage anymore right now. But of course I had to shake it off, this feeling, and put it long, long down in my brain. In the brain cave, that´s the place where thoughts like this lives. And sometimes when I´m tired or just not in the mood, those thoughts crawl up to the surface. Powerless that´s how I feel, I can´t do a shit, can I? What´s the point anyway? To try support and help, when it all feels like it´s already decided to happend in one direction or way? I feel really powerless then. I can go on an on and on for hours about this conversation, it thrills me. So I just stop here now, just that. ( snap my fingers )

Hope you all feel great this Tuesday evening?
I´m sorry about my bad english, don´t practise it very often ^^

See ya later alligator , see ya tomorrow folks

Kram // Ann